Sunday 19 June 2011

The account of the mysterious girl

He opened his lap top , logged in the facebook , checked the notifications they were only 2 new ones , one of them says " Sally also commented on her photo " , he expected to see a reply for his comment which was appreciating how nice the picture was , he checked the photo again to see her reply , realizing she was replying to another boy who commented after him ...
While the other notification was an event for an upcoming social festival , he read the description , and felt no enthusiasm as usual . he felt this shallowness of the event , he felt it as shallow because he had no one to invite him to go there . He has got pals , they are good ones , meet them for football match or just hang around in cars or some kinda stuff ..
It felt itchy at that moment , he went to the search box , and wrote her name ..
She is not in his friends list , they didn't have a face to face contact , they just exchanged once couple of messages , she started them demanding some help in university assignments , then it stopped .
Since these messages started , he was interested , saw some couple of mini notes she wrote down in her account  , they said alot of things even thought she might have only written two sentences in each note or something . His eager grew more , he kept checking from a day to another , some days might come without checking her writings , because he wasn't at the mood , he is having hard times , maybe that's why he is curious to know what she writes .. and he felt her not like any other shallow girl , there is something down there inside her .
He read in a new note mentioning her step-father as a " life time problem " ...and she'd put some weird gloomy pic that he couldn't find a meaning of it except loss .
A week passed by , he didn't log in during that time , the mood was prevailing again , he becomes lousy when he is having it , anything wouldn't matter to him , he just stays alone , no one to talk to because he just doesn't want to . He is not alone , but he has a big hole in him , an error in the psychological system .
He thought of a change , so he logged in and went to her account . whenever he goes there , it's like he is tasting her without her knowing , searching inside her without asking for permission ..
He goes there and he feels like he is having some sort of drug that is treating him temporarily from his mood . He feels like they can be real friends , and they can help eachother out of the misfortunes, then he revised his thoughts , he once had this experience , it was close to perfect , except that it was ruined because his best friend got engaged . He still remembers how much he got hurt and felt that space that she used to fill , he wouldn't do that again ,because it was so sweet ..
He feels itchy about clicking on the request for friendship button  . He wants to click it , but that was not enough .If there was something he would do , he would keep that distance between him and her mystery .


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