a way..

this is a way of mine while living a day
expect the worst of what's coming in case you fear you're gonna be disappointed
if you did so , and found something better . you will be more relieved that the worst you expected didn't come..and if the worst expectation came ,ah well , you expected it anyway ..so no worries and no disappointment ..you knew it was coming ..
don't have so high expectations or you will be letting yourself down
don't have low expectations to not lose your high spirit and your optimism ..
just live your day in a way that makes you stay away from regrets .

In ruins

fog is everywhere and he can't see 
the sky is gray and so are these buildings or what's left from them 
he lives in ruins since he was born 
he never saw the green grass nor blue river
because everything is gray 
because he was born under a cracked building that was falling apart
because he never saw his father 
because he knows his mother is sick and would die if she learned that her dear ,only left son was taken away from her
he looks at his hands , stained with dry blood 
blood belonged to his dead friend beside him , and there was no crime that he did to be killed .
yet there was a unreasonable cause for his death 
a rocket hit their neighborhood and cracked houses collapsed over him
huge tanks passed over dead bodies which lied there without being removed
soldiers with guns and riffles shooting 
he could do nothing ...but watch his people falling
he was right there behind a rock
and he couldn't cry for them , he cried many times 
his tears are no longer good for him 
because he realizes that .. he will grow among these scenes and die among them
he has this unclear future and the weak longing of the promised liberty day 
he has imagined this day and how bright will it be
unfortunately he won't ..as he sensed his sight became blurry , and his body ceased moving
a bullet swished into his heart , and... he let out his last breathe...

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ترحم علي شهداء غزة و ادع لاهلها الصابرين .......

من الصعب

من الصعب ان تسعد كل الناس في ان واحد 
من الصعب ان تحس بالسعادة لمدة طويلة
و من المستحيل ان اجعل بيني و بين ربي حاجز
الله هو الاول و الاخر 
فاذا لم انال رضاه , فقد خسرت الدنيا و الاخرة

We say "Oh boy ! "

we waste our precious time thinking about nothing 
until we suffer insanity in our minds then we say what the hell is going on
we get provoked by some actions and we curse
oh we say , what have we become?
if we wanted to share thoughts , we have to earn trust first
it takes too long for some people to give others their trust 
sometimes it just takes a while to give that trust ...!
yeah , we are classes and we are different
we love different stuffs and surely we disagree
it's such a pain when you can't get along with someone 
and it's a pain when you want to be saved from yourself 
but who shall do that ?? the question is who will be the one?
if we look at the way of life that we live , and we see , and consider it and be aware of not wasting this life 
we have one life to live only ,sadly , but it could be such a brilliant Once!
just don't let it be wasted ,nor darkened .
we take steps without any schemes , and we do regret eventually 
we look and watch and stare , but we happen to ask , do we have such high hopes to continue watching ..?
again we say ,oh boy ,what a bloody life we lead ! could it be worse ??
then the answer is hell yeah , it could be .
it could be black and white , tasteless , empty , without any passion 
and we could have been blind and deaf and senseless
the worst life of all when it equals nothing .

turn It On

i don't want to hear u bluffing
i will turn the music on ..and i'll start the tantrum
i don't like to hear you shouting 
the drums makes my heart beats faster ..anxious and wasted
i want to let it out
this suppressed emotions ..into a sentimental smile ,or a frozen tear
the magic of the flute carries you on its wind to a magnificent heaven
where i start to dance lonely 
weightless in the air , soft music , piano , violin ..?
then i fall , and i go riot ,with my heavy guitar 
and devils take over .
then i remember ..
none of these will i find my joy in
yet i found it in something else 
in a book ..a holy one having versus..pure words and deep meanings 
a gift from God that is
it's the safe place i return to

i shut the drums , this heavy metal ,this soft flute 
and i listen to the Azan..
much better..much worth hearing!!

It's so sad

the time when you gather around..talk and laugh
do you speak the truth ? or you just try to steal our attention..
when you think everything is fine while it's not . it's just the begining of a chaos 
now you will start to shout and yell , now your true side will appear to me
who should i believe ? and whose side should i take?
i like to be in the middle ..of everything .. .i don't like to make you upset 
i don't want to make you cry ,but that doesn't mean it's ok if you did this to me
i can forgive , but i can't forget ..never ! i'll never forget
when you look at me ..i know you have questions you wanna ask 
but when i look at you , i can collapse from the so many thoughts i have inside my head
it's so sad when you don't understand
that i began to like you ,but i knew
i knew this won't end like this
it won't end with a world full of flowers and pinky colours 
i know most of the time it ends with wounds 
but all what i say in the end is whatever it takes
i still won't give up and i won't surrender ..i'll still keep a smile on my face
i won't lose hope .there is still good people somewhere ..
my life won't stop if i am alone without you 
it's good that i knew at first not so late 
now to pick up the shattered pieces and now it's time to stop the blame
it's so lame ,the whole thing but what can i do?
i just need to shut up for a while and think
when words screw things up , it's better to not speak my mind up
but if i have no one to feel calm and soothed with ..
then i'll talk to the wind or the sea or the trees
they are the creatures of God as well as you
they maybe will understand me better than you do
they are even more beautiful when you look at them
they are more true to you when you open your heart and tell
things are meant to be like this
to be sad ,not delighting all the 24 
it's only so sad when it's so lame and when it's all about you
it's a shame , and i am not proud of it
but i am proud of the good memories i made
i know you have good things inside
but it ain't good enough for me

When a boy cries

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Girls wonder if a boy can cry?
Girls don't know that a boy is like them -a human being
A boy can cry ...that's what it is

When a b0y cries..they wonder..why does he cry?
what makes him cry? what on EARTH would make a boy of manly feeling weep ?
they think it's not like a boy to cry! why should he cry?
they think if he does ,he will be sissie
they think if he does , he must be of a girlish emotion 
they think if he does , he must be dreamy and a hell of a romantic prince .
they think if he does, then he is not a boy!

who siad "BOYS DON'T CRY??"

When a boy cries..he really cries
when a girl cries ..it ain't making any difference..girls cry ALL the time .
it's hard for a boy to cry , it takes millions of wounds ,sorrows and pain for him to cry one tear ..
and when a boy is watched crying , he would want to just get lost and disappear.
a boy cries when losing grip of everything
.....a boy cries when he really wants to cry........from deep inside..