It's so sad

the time when you gather around..talk and laugh
do you speak the truth ? or you just try to steal our attention..
when you think everything is fine while it's not . it's just the begining of a chaos 
now you will start to shout and yell , now your true side will appear to me
who should i believe ? and whose side should i take?
i like to be in the middle ..of everything .. .i don't like to make you upset 
i don't want to make you cry ,but that doesn't mean it's ok if you did this to me
i can forgive , but i can't forget ..never ! i'll never forget
when you look at me ..i know you have questions you wanna ask 
but when i look at you , i can collapse from the so many thoughts i have inside my head
it's so sad when you don't understand
that i began to like you ,but i knew
i knew this won't end like this
it won't end with a world full of flowers and pinky colours 
i know most of the time it ends with wounds 
but all what i say in the end is whatever it takes
i still won't give up and i won't surrender ..i'll still keep a smile on my face
i won't lose hope .there is still good people somewhere ..
my life won't stop if i am alone without you 
it's good that i knew at first not so late 
now to pick up the shattered pieces and now it's time to stop the blame
it's so lame ,the whole thing but what can i do?
i just need to shut up for a while and think
when words screw things up , it's better to not speak my mind up
but if i have no one to feel calm and soothed with ..
then i'll talk to the wind or the sea or the trees
they are the creatures of God as well as you
they maybe will understand me better than you do
they are even more beautiful when you look at them
they are more true to you when you open your heart and tell
things are meant to be like this
to be sad ,not delighting all the 24 
it's only so sad when it's so lame and when it's all about you
it's a shame , and i am not proud of it
but i am proud of the good memories i made
i know you have good things inside
but it ain't good enough for me