desire and compromise

Some how , One can reach to a certain limit which after it , nothing could do further effects in him than it has been already done ...
let's just live in a solitude for a moment and think rationally..
if we took a pathway that would be because of our choices and decisions ..
and the origin of our problems is our choices , eventually we say if only.......!
and solitude is all what awaits .. to share your loneliness
as this is the end of the path you chose , and accepting this is hard to face.
yet you face many characters and minds , and you pick those you like .
then it is luck to play its role , it's destiny , and don't say why .
i fall in a cloud of confusion and i wish if there would be some drops of rain to make things as clear as i want .
i got stuck between desire and compromise ....that's like what have i thrown myself into??
it could be just easier if i flew through emptiness of being numb 
lost among the shadows of fake blurry feelings..
o if you knew , what these minds are thinking of ..i dare that i won't have to think of compromising for such minds 
it's the desire which i will follow and i'll be taken under its lead 
and that's my own personal desire 
i will not belong to anyone's belief ..
going here and there , to this and that ..
it's too much weight when caring about everyone , it's not worthy and it's too expensive
it takes maybe half of your life to understand only one being ..how about hundreds ? in the past ? not mentioning those who are coming in the future being added to those of the present that maybe not be lasting forever ..too much ! and this needs alot of compromising .
i could have a concept of giving up ..not always
but if i believe in something , i'll fight for it and stand for it against any barrier ..
to those who think breaking a human's spirit is an easy thing to do
things aren't that simple , it's much deeper .
simple as shallow waters 
..those are really of fragile hearts , those who will really go down , deluded and despised